Feeling Better Now

By: Lori Gallimore (View Profile)

Eventually, I was found by the police and taken to a detention center. The rumors were that I was out prostituting myself for places to stay and my whole family believed it. Once again, I had no mother to tell what had happened, to comfort me or ask me if I was okay. At my stepfather’s urging, I was labeled “incorrigible” and placed into a reform school for girls. To the counselors, and probation worker, I tried to explain what my life was like at home without specifically saying anything, but my stepfather had them believing I was a pathological liar. I had one person tell me that to my face. What had I done wrong? Is this what we do with all the things in society that make us uncomfortable? We just sweep them under the rug? Are the people it affects to be ignored? Maybe then, it won’t come into our rosy little lives and disturb our hearts? Well, that’s a shame. I understand that no one wants to hear things that constantly depress them. Especially in a world where things are getting more and more heinous by the hour. If we paid adequate attention, and gave proper emotional attachment to everything on the news, we’d all need to be medicated. Maybe that’s why so many people drink and do drugs? But what about the lone individual? What about the one person out there asking for an anonymous word from someone—anyone?

 

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posted: 10.15.2007
Cheryl Blackwell
Lori Where to start ? You have had a hell of a life. And yes I do understand all to well to almost everything you have shared. I am a survivor of child sexual abuse and was in one childrens home after another. I know the fear you are living with the wanting to enjoy life and secretly waitting on the other shoe to drop. Thinking you dont deserve happiness and love. Wanting to scream to the sleeping world to wake up and understand your pain . I know the dreams you fight. I say all that to say....I dont have the answers either. But I am searching , I'm searching my soul, God and the things that happen to me. I know it happen to me but not because of me. But as the end result I'm the one left fighting to breath to live and have the life that is shared with love one's and family. I refuse to let my abuse be who I am today. I dont share my pain much, like you said people just dont get it. But I do write alot, that has been very healing for me. Its a release . God Bless you in your healing.
posted: 07.01.2007
Lori Gallimore
I'd like to thank you all for your support and comments. At first I was afraid to even write the words that have been haunting me for so long. I didn't know what to expect. It's good to know that maybe my pain isn't all for nothing, if my story can help someone else.
posted: 07.01.2007
Jodi Webb
Your story touched me deeply. I don't know how to express the feelings I have about the terrible things you have experienced. I don't remember most of my abuse (or so I think, but therapists have reason to believe I suffer from depressed memories) I don't know if it is better to remember or not. Please just know you are in my prayers and you are a wonderful strong person for being able to share something so traumatic. Keep being the wonderful person you have become.
posted: 06.30.2007
Colleen Gibbons
I've read both articles and am still so amazed with how much of this type of abuse has gone on and still goes on. I am also a survivor, and through counseling and al-anon am learning to work through survival to living the life I deserve and have always longed for. We can never get away from what happened, it's who we are, but we can re-raise the child that is still within us, and teach her safety and freedom and strength. Good luck and God bless to all the survivors out there and thank you for your bravery and honesty in your writing.
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