Sometimes, but not many, we would all get to go outdoors into a large yard with fences stretched as high as the sky. There were two medium sized dogs out there and a few toys to play with only one swing set having three swings. Most of the children spent time chasing each other or throwing a ball around. I enjoy being outside in the sunlight, but couldn’t handle being around so many kids of all ages. Each time we were stuck outdoors, all the kids even teens were out there as well. The teens would love to aggravate the little ones like me, so I would hide near the dog houses to play with the dogs. My sister would be looking after my brother with the baby toys.
My solitude place would soon become a place of horror when one teenage boy would discover my play place. He began to come over and play nicely from time to time. Then he suggested we’d play hide and seek with the dogs and one another. Of course, I would agree until he had sexually penetrated me at least three times. Then I would act out before outdoor play time so I wouldn’t have to go outdoors. I’d get put in the naughty room. Usually, there weren’t any other kids in there because most of them would make sure to earn the privilege to play outdoors. It wouldn’t be long before that same boy would figure out I was creating problems so I could avoid him. He started to join me in the naughty room. The sexual habits he had with me got worse. He even started to beat me up claiming he owned me and I had to just live with it. I cannot count the number of times this boy sexually attacked me, but remember the day it finally ended when I would leave the orphanage.
Before the day came for me to leave the home, all my siblings and I would see each other for one last time for next twenty-two years of my life. There were times we’d reunite within these years, but we would never actually be together as four siblings.
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