It is a low income/disabled apartment complex and I love it here. I do not know at exactly what time or point that my life changed for the better, I just know that it did. I remember as a child asking God why all of this was happening and asking him if I would ever find my happiness.
This prayer I thought went unanswered for the longest time, but if I would have just looked around me as an adult going through what I call my deep depression things were just fine they were okay and so was I if I would of let myself be.
I was my own worst enemy. My triplet brother and his wife always had good positive things to say to me and when I thought that I just didn’t care and wasn’t listening I actually did hear them and it all really started to sink in. I bless them every day for not ever giving up on me even when I had totally given up on myself.
My mental health with the help of medications, therapy, a couple of family members and God’s great love could not be better and I remember just a year ago when I moved into my new apartment when I said a prayer telling God thank you for helping me find my way and my happiness.
My physical health is poor right now, for those ten years I spent just lying in that bed trying to sleep my life away, my physical health was great. Now I have a catheter coming out of my belly called a supra pubic catheter, I have an injured back and get ill a lot due to infections in my bladder.
I do not walk all that great now and use the aid of my electric wheel chair when going out even just to cross the street to get a soda. But, I still could not be happier. Even though I may have pain and may shed some tears from time to time, I can still smile.
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