Gone but Not Forgotten

By: Beverly Carter (View Profile)

It was September 24th, 2006 the day of my oldest son Brian’s birthday, a day that I will never forget. This is the day that the Lord allowed me to birth him into this world, and the day that the Lord, let him exit this world. I remember the week before he called me and told me that he and his son Brian, Jr. were coming to church with me. I said ok and that made me really glad ...The twins had already had their birthday and I had cooked dinner for them. So on Brian’s birthday I had cooked dinner for him also.

I knew that something was strange, because when I was buying gifts for them, I always had to get Brian bigger sizes. So when I had gotten the twins gifts it was funny I did not even wait, I gave them their gift and decided to get everybody something else. And I thought about that it really caught my eye. But I let it go. Then I had had this dream but I really could not remember what it was but it did bother me.

And it was so strange that Brian had started texting me all the time and telling me that he loved me so much ... I mean we always would tell each other that we love each other but this was different. This was a certain kind of, “momma I love you so very much.” And I would text him back and tell him that I love him too. And sometimes I would just call him and tell him that I love and then we would talk.

He was going through a hard time with the mother of his kids; they were having problems and he really loved his children, and they were the world to him. And he wanted nothing more than to be the father that took care of and supported his children. Yet, he would text me and tell me how much he loved me. So I remember the day him and his sister Chantay, and brother Carlos came by the house and they were about to leave. He asked then how they want to prepare the funeral. I stopped and thought where did that come from?

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posted: 02.21.2008
Sherry Montoya
I AM SO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS. I TOO HAVE LOST MY SON ,HIS SON WAS BORN A MONTH LATER . I KNOW THAT THE HEARTACHE IS SO OVER WHELMING.I TAKE A LOOK AT MY GRANDSON AND THANK THE LORD FOR A PART OF MY SON WHO IS STILL ALIVE AND GROWING. WE HAVE TO CONTUE TO BELEIVE THE LORD KNOWS WHAT HE IS DOING .OUR CHILDREN ARE PREPARING A PLACE WHEN WE ARE TO BE REUNITED . I KNOW YOU HAVE PROBABLY HEARD THIS FROM PLENTY OF PEOPLE.TRY TO FIND WAYS TO HONOR HIS LIFE .PLANT TREES IN HIS NAME , DECORATE THEM FOR EACH SEASON . THIS IS ONE THAT WE HAVE DONE AND IT DOES HELP. YOU WILL BE IN MY PRAYERS .IF YOU EVER WANT TO SHARE HIS LIFE WITH ME MY E-MAIL IS Montoyashrr@aol.com THIS HELPS TO TALK TO PEOPLE WHO AREN`T SO CLOSE TO THE SITUATION. YOU ARE ALWAYS WELCOME.
posted: 01.20.2008
Rebecca Diaz
HI BEVERLY I HAVE A VERY SIMILAR STOY ABOUT MY SON I HAD AN ONLY CHILD A SON 34 THAT ALSO GOT SHOT HE ALSO HAD 2 CHILDREN, AND HE PASSED AWAY JUST 2MOS AGO 10-28-07 AND READING YOUR STORY REALLY HIT HOME, AND JUST LIKE YOU I'M DEVISTATED, SO I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW, I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOUR FEELING, THE ONLY DIFFERANCE IS I DON'T HAVE ANYMORE CHILDREN, I WISH WE COULD TALK I FEEL LIKE I CAN'T HANDLE THIS, THANK YOU BECKY D. LOS ANGELES CA. MY E-MAIL ADD. IS BECKYDIAZ60@HOTMAIL.COM IF YOU WANT TO COMMUICATE W/ME PLEASE DO SO, THANX
posted: 12.19.2007
Diana Smith
I'M SO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS. I LOST MY GRANDSON, DANIEL ON DECEMBER 5TH, O7. CHECK OUT THIS WEB SITE. IT'S BEAUTIFUL. www.ruthann1.com
posted: 12.11.2007
Renee Kell
Bless your heart Beverly. I am so glad you have your faith. I have had a hard time keeping mine since my son and husband died in a house fire. I am truly sorry for your loss and you are right, this is a pain and anguish that will never go away. I do keep telling myself that I will see him again soon but the wait is agonizing and too long in coming. You are in my prayers and heart.
posted: 12.08.2007
Missy
Enjoyed your story. God bless you.
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