I never have questioned God’s existence and I never will but sometimes I find myself questioning his ways. The bible tells us that we ought not do this but I feel that sometimes it just can’t be helped. At this point and time in my life I find myself questioning him more than ever. I’m not dying from an illness or anything like that it’s just that I am beginning to understand more as I grow in age. I have become very discouraged by things that are happening too, things that have happened to me, and things that have not happened that I want to happen to me. The things that I want to happen are supposed to happen because the bible said that they would, but nothing has happened. Why? The things that are happening to me and have happened to me are not supposed to happen because the bible said so. So why are they happening?
I consider myself to be an ordinary person. There are people who God has given extraordinary abilities. They are blessed with the talents to write or they are given athleticism or they are given brilliance or maybe they are given the ability to create and I envy those people because they will be recognized by the world. I envy those people because they will always have someone to help them in life. I envy these people because I am not one of them. While I am writing this I find myself coming to tears because the only thing running through my mind is: God, why can’t I be one of those people?
