Walking on a sixteen foot stretch of hot coals, 600–1200 degrees Fahrenheit to be exact … is to the layperson an extremely nutty and dangerous thing to do. When I told people I was going to be doing this I got quite a range of reactions—mostly fear-based, a few curious and some downright disdainful. “Good luck with that,” was the overall tone from most. As in … there she goes again … always pushing the envelope and taking bizarre risks. But to the spiritual seeker, visions, mystics, shamans, and now to many CEOs and motivational types like Tony Robbins, it is not simply an exercise to “conquer” one’s fears or just something to do for the hipness factor of saying that you did it. It is much more than that. It’s a personal and sacred rite of passage. Of surrendering. Allowing. And sure—I’ll admit the bragging rights are cool, too. But that is not the only reason I did it. I did it because I feel like I’m turning a significant corner in my life and I felt it was appropriate to mark that somehow.
Under a clear and cold starlit sky, as the fire blazed higher and higher—speaking its crackling/hissing whispers and embers danced swirling towards the heavens, I realized something important about how I approach the daily challenges of my life. I did the coal walk three times (after the fire died down but the glowing coals were primed and ready), and each time I walked differently and for different reasons. The first time … I did it “to get it over with” … I walked for everyone and anyone who has ever felt crazy. I walked declaring that “sane is a four letter word.” The second time, I walked for all of my family members—those both alive and the ones who’ve passed over, this time I walked a little slower wanting to be as much in the moment as possible but still a bit scared of getting burned. The third and final time … I walked for the book Lipstick and Thongs in the Loony Bin, its place in the world, and for me and my place in the world. This was more of a stroll. I wanted to prolong the experience and this time—I was feeling more confident. I want to carry that coal stroll feeling of being safe, loved, and whole into my life more and more. That mind-full-ness, the soul expansion and the courage to take on whatever heat or ashes life brings.
