Something Inside

It’s about 10:41pm Tuesday. I’m unable to sleep from the constant thoughts going through my head so I decided to write. Many of my readers ask how I come up with some of the things I write about.  Well, here is something that I decided to share instead of locking it away in a journal.

I’m struggling with the issue of my wife being in intensive care suffering from Pneumonia. Besides battling Pneumonia she has the disease Lupus. If you know anything about Lupus it’s a disease that can really be non-forgiving at times. Since she has Lupus she is unable to fight the Pneumonia as well as someone with a healthy immune system. When I visited her at the hospital today I felt a little uneasy. I’ve seen her in the hospital before due to Lupus, but this was different. There was something that seemed to be reaching to me inside. It was almost like something was talking to me.

As I sat in the hospital room looking at her I thought about how she completes me. It’s amazing how you can be with someone nine years and not really consider what they mean to you. At times we take people for granted because we assume they will always be there. At thirty-three years of age you should never be pondering the “what if” scenario.

While I sit here and write I know that everything will be okay. You’re probably wondering how I know that. Something deep down inside is telling me that things are going to be fine. Just like something told me to sit down and write this entry. As my situation passes and becomes a memory someone else will come across this entry. They may come across this tomorrow or a year from now but there is something in this that may help them to trust in faith.