I no longer remember why I started this journey.
There is no longer a light at the end of the tunnel, only the dark gloominess of disillusions lurking in the distance waiting to tare away at what is left of me.
I don’t think that I have the strength to go on. Where are you Lord?
You said that you would never leave me, yet I am so alone.
I am wandering in a place of darkness and unfamiliar territory.
God, do you hear me? I need your help, I am drowning in the muck and mire of my own making.
Please help me. Can you hear me? have you turned away?
Can I finish this race; can I find my way out of this?
I just don’t know.
