Prayer for Help

I spoke to someone who is more of a mother to me than my own, she told me about this psalm and even though I was angry with God, when I read it, it comforted me. I wasn’t so angry at him anymore, I more needed him at that point. He listened, after years of pleading with God to take control of my life and make things right, he listened!!!

Things are not all good right now, but I am seeing signs of good happening, maybe everything is for a period. In my case an eight year long period, but I am still here, at what seems to be the end of it. I am still here. I always worry that, if I get my hopes up, like I have done before, that I would get disappointed again, that has happened before, but this time, it feels different. I feel hopeful and I haven’t felt that in years.

After all of the thoughts of suicide and the crying, and the screaming, and the hurting over all those years, I think its over. I think all that stuff has come to an end. I think that everything is gonna be ok now. It feels that way. I have hope again, I have hope again.

Things might actually go right this time, the bad things might actually be gone. Good things might actually happen.

There is hope.