God Will Answer

My entire family is Mormon. I drifted away for so many reasons when I married my husband. For years it bothered me to not go to church or believe they same way they did. For years I explored life without God.

One day I just got so lonesome for him and started praying and asking him if I was still a good person and even though I wasn’t going to church would I go to Hell? I had friends that were such good people and didn’t go to church and were they going to Hell? Well, I kept praying about this and reading my scriptures and daily knelt down in prayer wondering if my soul was in trouble. I finally got really brave and asked God to show me a sign if he was really there and loved me?

I came home for lunch everyday, kissing my husband good-bye I left for work. Driving on the highway I was doing 65mph and just like that, I am moving very slow and realized I just had a head on collision. My car finally stopped. It was dead silent. I thought I must be dead, realizing I wasn’t I panicked to get out of my car. I had just filled my gas tank and worried it would blow.

I got out and heard the other driver moaning and walked away into the grass and realized I am really hurt, like a swooshing sound I am no longer there. I am in the lightness and felt no pain or sorrow just the most beautiful calm loving feelings all around me. I wasn’t alone. It was like no other feeling I have ever felt Peace doesn’t really describe it. Realizing I was dead, I started begging God to please don’t take me. My kids couldn’t make it without me. Their real dad had killed himself and I was all they have. I started to cry and plead with him and then that swoosh sound and I was back. The pain was overwhelming, I couldn't breath and started to cry out for help that I was in trouble, I knew it to by the way it hurt.

A woman came up to me and trying to keep me calm told me, “You wouldn’t believe your wreck, your car looked like someone just moved it right off the highway out of the oncoming traffic and parked it perfectly straight against the curb, look,” I couldn’t believe it.