Age has nothing to do with it. Experience has nothing to do with it. Wisdom might have something to do with it, and I wonder if I have wisdom.
Trust is something we keep or something we lose. We trust someone, and we find that our trust puts us at risk. People use trust to take advantage of other people. People use trust to manipulate other people. So when do we lose trust? How do we keep trust alive in us?
Trust is something I will continue to have, and with that trust I will move blindly with it. Where am I going with it? Well, who knows? I don’t even know. But I know that my instincts will tell me if I should use trust at that moment or discretion. I also know that my instincts are not always 100 percent on the money. What I do know is that if I lose trust, I lose more than that. I lose the very soul of my core to withdrawing into a shell called “safe at home.” I lose life. I lose faith. I might as well close my door and set three locks and cover the peephole.
Today, I am trusting myself to a new experience. This experience is one I have never felt ever before in my whole life. It is filled with excitement, optimism, hope, faith and joy. I wake up thinking about my new experience. I ask myself questions about it. I marvel at the strength of this newfound experience. And truth be told, I don’t know where it will go and how it will end. My trust is giving me the opportunity to take that chance, and make that move and speak my mind and free myself. I’m acting like a high school kid who just asked the prettiest girl in his class to go to the prom, and I got a “yes.”
Trust will guide me into this experience, and I know that trust will allow me to be free and discover what lies before me. I also have the trust that I will find all the positive things in my experience to take me to my next road of discovery whatever and where ever that will be. The whatever is my expression of my emotional feelings. The where ever is a place distant from me but where I am willing to go travel to express my whatever.
I am trusting that my expressions/experiences/feelings will be returned in kind. I am trusting that this journey will take me to a level of life that offers more discovery and more peace and harmony. I go blindly ... with trust.
Cheers!
