It was so strange feeling these feeling for him again. We have not been together in almost six years now, nor have we seen one another. Occasionally, I do dream of him—sometimes negatively and sometimes positively.
Anyway, the dream starts of with us being together, just being around one another. I feel that wonderful feeling of new love—even untainted love, because I had never loved anyone before him. We were just together, being happy and all of the sudden there was some reason he had to die. There was no way out of it, he just had to. I was so upset. I didn’t want him to leave me. That pain when he left me so many years back came flooding into my heart. I stood there and watch him die—it was an explosion.
Directly after that dream, I dreamed that it was late at night. I heard laughing outside of my house and saw car lights. I opened the door, and my fiancé was standing there laughing and drunk. A woman gets out of the car and starts laughing too. He says that he doesn’t want to be with me anymore. There’s no feeling in his voice, he’s just laughing and hugging her. I’m torn apart. He is also the father of our one and half year old son. All I could think was, “How can he do this to us?”
The real thing here is that he would never cheat on me and never has given me a reason to believe he would. In combination, what could these dreams mean? I don’t feel that perfect love I felt with my first love with him. I haven’t been able to feel that way about anyone since him. My ex is married and lives far off too. I’ve started a family, why am I dreaming about an ex and about my fiancé leaving me?
