My Dreams Since I Lost My Daughter

By: Nawanna Combs (View Profile)

My fifth dream was just yesterday which was sissy’s b-day and I have been so sad lately missing her and she came to me in my dream hugged me and let me kiss her face then she left me with a poof.

My sixth dream I was at my mom’s and was getting ready to leave when all of the sudden everything turned pitch black and me and my mom walked out onto the porch and looked at the sky and all you could see was something falling like a ball of fire from the heaven. And I started jumping up and down and screaming that the Lord was coming and hit my knees and said thank God I get to be with my baby again, then the big ball of fire landed in my mom’s garden and lava started spurting from it and burning the ground and I told my mom she needed to call the fire department before the mountains caught on fire. And then all of the sudden a vehicle drove out of the big fire ball dragging my eldest son in under it he was bloody and beaten.

My dream was last night we were in a hospital that I didn’t know and sissy was running around everywhere which in real life was impossible because she had a massive stroke at 5 1/2 months from some medication that her doctor had given her without permission. And my mom and husband were there and my mom kept telling me that she wanted me to go downstairs and sissy told me she wanted her nana to stay and play with her so I went and this man dropped something down a hole and I climbed down to get it for him and when I got back upstairs sissy was sitting in the lobby with a lot of children and was really pale and when my mom turned her around she had a cut from the back of her neck on down with steri-strips. And I asked what happened and mom said she couldn’t stop them from doing it to her and she said they did the wrong procedure on her and I was so angry that I was going to kill the doctor that did it to her and went to the nurses desk with a gun and sissy told me she wanted her pink fleece pj and I put them on her and woke up.

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posted: 03.06.2008
Finding Serenity
I don't think that you are blaming yourself. You are going through the steps or stages of grief. I don't remember them all off the top of my head, but in your dreams you are trying to change the outcome of the reality of your life. I feel your grief and understand it. Today is the third anniversary of my son, Adam's, untimely death. He passed away at the age of 22. I had him longer than you had your daughter but that does not make it any easier. To make my life even worse I lost David, my second oldest, this past September 13. Just remember to take life one minute, one step at a time. My goal when Adam died was to get out of bed, shower and get dressed. My goal now is to get out of bed, brush my teeth, shower if I can, get dressed. Sometimes I don't get much more than that done, but I got out of bed. I don't know if this has helped. Just know that you are not alone. Your daughter is always with you, you just can't see her, but she is there. Thank you for listening.
posted: 03.01.2008
Sherrolyn Mincey
I think you feel resonsible for the death in some way. All indications are that you blame yourself. You canot continue to do this. If you have other children they need you now and in the future. You cannot bring back your daughter but you can be there for your family. I suggest you cosult a professional to talk about these dreams rather than try to figure them out yourself. For your sake and your family - SEEK HELP.
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