My Dreams Since I Lost My Daughter

By: Nawanna Combs (View Profile)

Hi, I was just wondering if anyone could please help me with my dreams, since no one else on earth can help me at all. I lost my beautiful daughter in November of 2007, due to a heart condition. My life has went through a downward spiral since then. I don’t have the heart to do much of anything anymore she was my life she was a special little girl who required full time care and she was my life for the last 7 and 3/4 years.

My first dream since she left me was I was sitting on a porch at my mother’s house and was thinking of her and this little white dog came from no where barking loudly and ran off the porch and through the yard to some bushes. And I thought what a goofy dog and whose is it and where in the world did it come from. Then all of the sudden it ran past me and disappeared then all of the sudden from where the little dog was barking at came three big black bears running towards me, and I jumped up and ran into the house slammed the kitchen door shut and screamed for someone to close the living room door and everyone just stood there looking at me like I was crazy. So I pushed past them and slammed the door shut which the door in my dreams was not like my mom’s front door at all. Then I yelled for someone to lock it and they just stood there, then the door knob turned and my husband and my mom held me in place while this black bear came into the house and started ripping the skin and meat off my hands and arms while I stood there trying to get away.

My second dream I knew that my daughter was alive and I couldn’t find her but somehow my husband knew where she was and wouldn’t tell me, and I begged him to tell me where she was at because my heart told me she was awake and afraid because it was dark where she was at and he would keep telling me he would go and get her in a minute for me and I begged him just to tell me where she was at and I would go and get her.

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posted: 10.24.2008
Dana
Nawanna, I have lost my 8 month old daughter this past august. I understand completely how you feel. I have surrounded myself with family and great friends, it has helped but i still feell so alone. I keep on going for my 2 young boys who need me. they are my pride and joy. I wish i could have ahd more time with her. She was my 3rd child and only girl. I can be a little at piece knowing that now she doesn't have any more pain like she had here.
posted: 03.06.2008
Finding Serenity
I don't think that you are blaming yourself. You are going through the steps or stages of grief. I don't remember them all off the top of my head, but in your dreams you are trying to change the outcome of the reality of your life. I feel your grief and understand it. Today is the third anniversary of my son, Adam's, untimely death. He passed away at the age of 22. I had him longer than you had your daughter but that does not make it any easier. To make my life even worse I lost David, my second oldest, this past September 13. Just remember to take life one minute, one step at a time. My goal when Adam died was to get out of bed, shower and get dressed. My goal now is to get out of bed, brush my teeth, shower if I can, get dressed. Sometimes I don't get much more than that done, but I got out of bed. I don't know if this has helped. Just know that you are not alone. Your daughter is always with you, you just can't see her, but she is there. Thank you for listening.
posted: 03.01.2008
Sherrolyn Mincey
I think you feel resonsible for the death in some way. All indications are that you blame yourself. You canot continue to do this. If you have other children they need you now and in the future. You cannot bring back your daughter but you can be there for your family. I suggest you cosult a professional to talk about these dreams rather than try to figure them out yourself. For your sake and your family - SEEK HELP.
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