I ended up becoming one of the band members Personal Assistant, which wasn't necessarily the career path that I wanted to take. At the time, my mentor suggested that it may be a good thing to try because this guy’s career was going to be huge. I stayed with him for nearly five amazing! So, in between then and now, I've worked with quite a few celebs as a stylist and assistant.
In 2007, I find myself so disillusioned with that world. I have been working temp jobs because I have no clue what so ever what I want to do or what I should do. Most of all I don’t know where I fit in. I feel that I lost sight of my true passion—fashion—because I got caught up in the world of entertainment.
Yes, as a stylist, I was still involved with fashion but not in the way that I wanted to in the beginning. I know that dreams change, lives change and people change, but I need to find a way to get out of this total and complete rut. I've been thinking about a career counselor, a life counselor, something, anything.
At home, I cry when I sew. I cry when I cook. I feel like such a failure, I feel like I will never find a job, that I will never be happy with my career choices. I am now in my 40's and feel like I should have accomplished so much more and I should be stable with a steady paycheck, benefits, 401k. At this point, it's starting to affect my relationship with my boyfriend. He supports me 100% in whatever I want to do, but I feel so ashamed that he's taking care of everything on his own.
I just feel like such a failure...
