I Surrender

I Surrender ...

Injury to one,
Injury to another,
ER visit for a third ...

Persistent errors,
Delayed answers,
Unknown diagnosis ...

A son going here,
Another leaving soon.
Another bored and restless ...

I surrender.

I surrender concerns.
I surrender worry.
I surrender control.
You are sovereign ...

I thought I learned it before.
I thought I had surrendered ...
I know now it is a constant,
It is a constant process.

Each time it goes deeper ...
Each time I learn faster ...
I am not in charge.
I cannot even add a
single day to my life.

The hairs of my head
are all numbered.

The hours of my sons’ lives
are all mapped.

We are not sailing in a boat
without a captain.