Life and Lindsay Lohan

I am such a sucker. I am so in love with kids’ movies...I mean ones with real meaning. I remember when the remake of The Parent Trap came out. It was so magically done and so wonderfully recreated. How could anyone do a better job at playing the twins than Lindsay Lohan? What a talented and beautiful little girl she was. I used to be able to watch that movie and enjoy every moment of it. I still cry when I see it. Now, though, when I watch it, I want to cry because all of the innocence that Lindsay had is gone. She has grown up and her name is a household word—only not in the way it should be. She is targeted by the tabloids and gossip columns because of her “party life” and her bouts with rehabs. I agree there are others like her; Britney Spears, for one. But I am partial to Lindsay mainly because of the movies she was so good in. I even liked her in Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen—even though she was older and a little less innocent. 

Then I begin to compare her with the new up and rising stars my kids watch and I worry about their futures as well. It doesn’t stop there. I have to then ponder my own children and their youthful innocence and pray that they can grow up and not have to deal with the kinds of things I did in my own adult life. I can see where this affects parents now. Like my own parents. I wonder if they ever thought I would grow up and act out like I have? This must weigh heavy on them. Or, well, it must have. I know it did for my father because I now know his personality type and it was one of much pride. I know I let him down. Even now I have a hard time writing about him because I always want to capitalize the “h’s” that refer to him just like we do with the ones that refer to God. I find this kinda trippy. Why do I want to capitalize them? I don’t know if it is out of respect or if I considered him a God in my life. He was far from a religious person, but he did have good morals and values and he loved people. However, he was not the “perfect” person I always thought he was growing up.