Hanging there upside down I felt helpless and completely out of control. I wanted to be there for Gussie, but she was now on her own. I hoped that Auguste would survive but that was his problem, not mine.
“When is this ride going to end?!”
I have always counted on the fact that I could find an answer to any problem. I have always relied on my ability to hustle up a way to get from “A” to “B.” But here, on Space Mountain, there was no answer I could find and no hustle that would save the day. There wasn’t a lesson I had learned that I could draw from or a friend that I could call to talk me through.
Hanging upside down on Space Mountain all I had were regrets. All I wanted was to get off. But all I could do was be still. All I could do was “let go” and reassure myself that “this too shall pass.” This time I had no choice but to surrender in exchange for the possibility of expanding my capacity to—trust.
And you? When life offers you the opportunity to escape the comfort of your safety zone, will you dare? When it gets tough and you get scared, will you let go and trust that everyone and everything will be O.K.?
We got off of Space Mountain in one piece and I’m sure that one day I will take that ride again because I believe that life should be thrilling. I believe that as long as I am alive, I might as well live—crystal clear that if I dare, there will be days when my world will be turned upside down and I’ll hear that desperate voice inside my chest cry “Uncle” again.
Is life worth living if you don’t risk? Is it possible to risk and not trust?
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