I’m an all or nothing sort of girl. Either it’s all or nothing with me. There is simply no in-between. Sigh. This causes great angst for me in many areas.
First and foremost, of course is the chocolate area. When there is an all or nothing mentality, EVERY bag of M & M’s has to be finished. Nothing can be eaten halfway. It simply kills me if there is a half-full container of Ben and Jerry’s Chocolate Brownie frozen yogurt in my freezer. Those pints are meant to be one serving, I swear!
I have no understanding of moderation. I recently ran into a friend at The Gap whom I hadn’t seen in a good five months. She looked amazing and I told her so. She said she had lost some weight by running and really watching what she ate. “Yes,” I said, “some people understand moderation.”
I don’t. I have to finish. I simply have to finish anything yummy. I can’t have just ONE piece of chocolate, brownies, cookies… you get the picture. In many cases, I’ve just told myself that I cannot even start. Many years ago I gave up doughnuts. They don’t even interest me at this point. I guess I COULD do the same with all desserts…but then that would eliminate quite a bit of yummy experiences.
I began thinking about moderation. Is this a characteristic I need to develop? Something I need to nurture in myself?
I have a friend who has at least 20 white t-shirts and jeans all from The Gap or Banana Republic. His theory was that you just simply could not have enough. I remember looking into his closet and thinking could half this amount do the trick? (Of course don’t ask me that question when it has to do with chocolate!)
When I get “caught” on something, I carry it through to the bitter end. One year I was on a mission to find “the perfect little black dress.” I almost drove my sister crazy and ended up finding three. I still have one, the other two simply wore out with age and then of course, they were really OUT of style. Recently I’ve been trying to find jeans that not only fit, but fit really well. You can imagine the amount of hours I’ve put into this quest.
