Coping with Reality!

When I met him I had a great job, making very good money, my own brand new home ... and I was very independent. I even helped out other people. As a matter of fact I helped him! He had nothing ... I helped him with his career, taught him how to manage his money, how to aspire for better things in life. And now I have nothing. I lost my job (lay offs), lost my home (had to sell), but most of all I lost my self respect, confidence in myself and others. At one point I was living from one house to another with my little girl. I refused to continue my abusive relationship with him. He was verbally abusive and manipulative and pushed me down all the time. The last straw was when he hit me and threw me out of his apartment and yelled all kinds of things. I had no where to go ... all my savings where gone. He took my phone, debit cards, and anything that would enable me to call someone for help.

I went back and stayed there despite all that went on that day. I got my real estate license and the first chance I got ... I left! I have my own apartment now ... struggling financially but much better emotionally. I had to stand up and show my daughter the right path so that she doesn’t grow up thinking it’s ok for men to abuse you verbally. I have a long road ahead of me but I know I am in the right path to healing all my wounds. He was horrible to me and caused a lot of pain and damaged my image of a real man in my head. But I know I have my daughter and God who will keep me strong to continue and to help get through that ugly part of my life.

I know my upbringings have a lot to do with the type of man I continue to meet but I refuse to live that. I want a better and brighter future for myself and my daughter and I know somewhere there is a great man who will love me and give me the respect I deserve as a person. I am searching for anyone right now. I am just taking it day by day... learning to live and coping with reality...