If you want to know where to go from here, I think it’s time for the full-disclosure-honesty route. If you seriously want her back, go to her with the truth and a plan. You sit her down and tell her what you’ve been doing and why the wedding was cancelled. Tell her you’re in treatment (and if you’re not, you need to get yourself there), prepare her for the hard road ahead, but tell her you love her and want her on that road with you, but don’t push her on the marriage issue. Give her information for local heroin-addict support groups. And don’t cringe at the word “addict”—your wedding is off because of your drug problem, so I think it’s appropriate.
But beware, J. If I were her, I’d be hard-pressed to take you back. By your own admission, you’ve already got two strikes, and if it were me, I’d be unwilling to gamble on the third. Still, if you truly love this woman you have to go after her and try to make it work—but you have to be ready to change and change for good, no looking back and no more lying. Get yourself in treatment. Good luck.
Read Part Three of the February 4-Way.
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