I had the church pray, my mother and friends prayed, everyone prayed but nobody could have ever imagined the outcome of all the constant worry and supplications. The lady who found families that wanted to adopt, had located a couple who desperately wanted a baby of their own and were willing to pay for the expenses, the doctors fee, hospital bill, and any other expenses incurred having the child. I was resentful and hurt that we could no longer afford to have any options in this matter and I let Jennifer make the decision. I had a two-year-old son to take care of and no outside job, what could I do?
On August 16, 1988, Jennifer delivered a beautiful baby girl. Jennifer was preoccupied with her decision and I was just believing in a miracle. God would deliver us from this situation and it would all work out for everyone. The adoptive parents were thrilled (I never met them) and the other shoe dropped. The baby was sick, the hospital said she had Beta Strep and because she was premature, she might not live! I had never heard of Beta Strep, what was this terrible disease and how does a baby contract it? My understanding of this disease, from nurses, is that it is similar to strep throat only at the other end. I found that it is preventable and easily treated. Jennifer had care … she had a Christian doctor and she had been in an unwed mothers home in Texas, how could they have not tested for this?
The adoptive parents no longer wanted her … of course not … they bargained for a healthy baby. Jennifer decided to keep her and we named her Faith. There is no sadder place than NICU and I spent every day going there to see Faith and pray for her, we knew that she had to pass more urine in order to get well and we knew that some babies made it through this fight for life. I wanted to hold her so that she could feel the love and caring that I had for her but the nurses would not let me do that. Jennifer made a tape recording of her voice reading Gods word to her and I stumbled and cried through every day. Every night was spent wondering how she was, was she getting any better? Was she cold or hungry?
Losing Faith
By: Jordana Butler (View Profile)
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Hi Jordana. your story touched me deeply. I am 7 weeks pregnant and will definitely add the Beta Strep test to my list of questions for my doctor. I also, had never heard of it until now. And remember, God never, ever gives us more than we can handle!!!
Hi Jordana, I want to thank you for writing your story i'm 15wks pregnant with my second child and have never heard of Beta Strep. i was never even offered a test with my first child. (not that i am aware of, unless they did it in one of the many blood test that i had) But i will most certainly ask my doctor now about it. take care and God Bless. He is taking care of your Faith
Ginnina, I don't willingly isolate myself from my daughter or grandsons, I am stuck in a small and economically depressed town hoping that I will get out of here and back to where I was living. My new husband grew up and works here and right now we cannot afford to move. I wish I could change things now just like I did then. Thank you for your comment and interest.
it's a good thing that it's a routine thing that all hospitals check for as soom as the mother arrives. But Jordana, why do you isolate yourself from your daughter and grandsons now? You can't change what happened, you know....
Thank you for sharing your story...I just got tested on Monday...I'm 34 weeks pregnant. God is faithful and pray His peace upon you always. God Bless!
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