Dealing with Loss While Expecting Your Bundle of Joy

By: Lindsey8484 (View Profile)

I am almost six months pregnant with my second child. I have a four-year-old little girl, (my lil princess). I just found out that I am having a boy. My husband was so happy to find that out. He was jumping up and down and hugged the lady doing my sonogram so suddenly that she almost fell off her chair! I read all the books and listen to all the tips on how to make a boy; I tried my best, and got what we wanted.

Anyway, we decided not to tell anyone, and it was going to be our surprise to everyone.  Everyone was making their bets and hoping for what they wanted. This week my father-in-law had a heart attack and had to be put on life support, he was drugged up for a couple of days. When they took him off the drugs to wake him up, he tried to pull the tube out, and made it very clear that he did not want it in anymore. He signed the DNR, they took the tube out, and they told us he only had a few hours to live. We were at the hospital everyday for a week being by his side all night and all day. He lasted for four days after they took the tube out. Although he could not talk due to the damage to his throat from the tube and from having an oxygen mask on, he did know we were there and would shake his head yes and no to any of our questions.  My husband knew he wasn’t going to make it very long and told his father that he was finally going to have his first little boy. Of course everyone heard and that is when I lost everything I was trying hold up for the family. 

Everyone expected us to name the baby after his father. We asked him and he shook his head no, he shook his head yes to name him after my husband, but we didn’t ask him if he was to be a Jr.  Now everyone says that the baby’s middle name would be my father’s first name, which would mean my baby would not be a Jr., which is kind of is disappointing to me. My husband has waited a long time to have his little boy, and was looking forward to having a Jr. and I also was very excited for him. Now that the family is dealing with this very big loss, in three and a half months this long awaited bundle of joy will be bitter sweet. My daughter was very close to papa and he will never be able to see his baby boy’s baby boy. That is very unsettling to me and my husband.

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posted: 07.06.2008
Lindsey8484
I just wanted to update this story, As of July 6,2007 I am currently 33wks pregnant, and enjoying every min of it. My husband has had time to greive over the loss of his father and to come to terms that it must have been his time to go home. The comment from Mommy2boyz about my father-in-law already meeting my son was very soothing to my husband(thank-you). It does make sense that God gives one to sooth the hurt from losing one, but it is still really hard. We have decided to give the baby two middle names, his papa's name and his fathers middle name(that was his papa's middle name as well) and I will also name him Jr. My husband said that he would just enjoy being able to say his fathers name. We have the nursery all ready for the baby, I feel like by doing this it was some therapy for my husband. My daughter talks of her papa everyday and misses him very much, I tell her that papa misses her to and that he is watching over her from heaven. She is ok with that I guess for being 4yr
posted: 06.27.2008
Nae Nae
I know that this is a very hard decision for you and I'm sure that you don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. You have to remember that you and your husband made that child together and it is a decision for you to make together as well. I believe God gives one to ease the pain of losing of one. I hope that makes sence. I lost my Dad and shortly after I had my son. Now a few weeks ago I lost my grandfather and I recently found out that I am pregnant. Every day I wish that my Dad knew my husband and my children, and they got to know him, but i know he is watching them and he is proud of us.
posted: 06.08.2008
Diantha Smith
What you, your husband, and family have gone through is very unfortunate and you shouldn't have to endure additional stress over something so trivial by comparison. Naming your son needs to be an enjoyable experience, something shared between you and your husband, ONLY you and your husband. Let your family know that their suggestions will be considered, and YOUR son's name will be given with an unsurpassable amount of thought and love by the two people who created him. Good luck, and keep in mind that your father-in-law will not be dishonored by your son's name (whatever you choose it to be) and your family won't love him, you, or you husband any less over his name.
posted: 06.05.2008
Rebecca Gomez
i wonted to name my baby gurl after my husband mom but that name is already takein and then my husband brother had a baby lasted year and had the baby after his brother mom's mom so all the gurl names after the moms are takein so yeah i wish that it was kinda different too so if i had a time to put my baby names as my husband mom name i would
posted: 06.05.2008
Rebecca Gomez
i am going to be 29 week monday and i feel like a fat cow this is my 3 baby i am 171lbs and i feel like my baby gurl is geting way to big to be in my tummy
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