My baby’s first Christmas, Thanksgiving, birthday, everything else will also be the first without pops. I am kinda confused on how to feel about all of this, there are a lot of mixed emotions going on right now, I was soooooo happy two weeks ago, everything was so perfect. Now everything is so incomplete without pops. I saw and took care of my father-in-law everyday for eight years and became very close to my husband’s family. Although I don’t know how it feels to lose one of my own parents, I hurt for the loss of my husband and children, along with the loss that I feel after knowing him only those short eight years.
We had the funeral today and that sucked; I haven’t really been that hungry, but I also know that I have to eat for the baby. I try not to get too stressed out but that is hard. I am trying to be a good wife and be there for my husband. I’m trying to be a good mother and help my little one try to understand everything that happens now without her best friend. Also, on the other hand I am six months pregnant. What am I supposed to do? Any suggestions or encouraging words? Do I tell my husband that I would still like to name the baby Jr.? Do I give the baby two middle names? If I do that can I still name the baby Jr.?
