The more I resist
The more I obsess,
It’s overpowering and heady,
Enthrallingly tempting
What do I do now?
Like candy just left out in the open
No one will ever know
If I take only one
Though I really want the whole bowl
I can’t risk being caught
There is too much at stake
I don’t want this to be on the record
Of the many mistakes I’ve made
My mind stages a show of puppets
“What-if’s and maybes” like marionettes
A torturous game
Of possibility and regret
For a moment, I manage to let go
Then it sneaks up while I’m defenseless
Catching me and setting my world aglow
I plot and I plan and I fight
But exhaustively admit
I’m in a web of my own making
And the harder I struggle,
The more tangled I get
I can’t stop the temptation
Like an addict with one more drink
Stealing it just one more time
For a rush to the heart and cheeks flushed with wild pink
