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The State of Living

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I have always been the type of person that has just gotten by. I took basic jobs, ones that required minimal responsibility on my part, stayed for a while, and then moved on. I eventually decided to get into childcare field and work with young children, toddlers mainly. It was fun most days, getting to play with the kids, watching them learn and grow, but hey, changing diapers multiple times a day starts to get to you (and your back) after a while. Getting by has worked up until a couple of years ago when I started my life all over. I now had to “grow up” really fast and open my eyes.

I have been struggling to just get by. I suffer from depression and anxiety, and was off from working for about a year. When I was ready to go back to the working world, it was a struggle for me. I was fighting anxiety and thus constantly getting sick, that along with other things has had me job bouncing for the last few months. It’s something I am not proud of, but I did have money coming in and was able to get the bills paid. But now, I am once again out of work, got hurt recently, and will not be able to work for a few months. Considering my husband just lost his job as well, we are now in the position that a lot of other people are—out of money, not much food, close to being homeless if something doesn’t change soon—a very scary concept that we are working hard to change.

In realizing that I needed some help, I went to the local social services office. I have never needed assistance before, but with the state of struggle that we are currently in, I felt like I had to ask for help. In using up the last of our resources, no unemployment available, the request for assistance still pending (apparently I have to wait until April to see if I’m eligible to get food, um, yeah) and constantly reading about how many people are suffering worse than myself, I have started to look beyond the bubble of my life to the world around me, and realized that things in many aspects are going rapidly downhill. Obviously these things have been going on all the time, but in the last year as the economy has tanked, people are losing their jobs in record numbers, their homes, and their sense of self as we tumble further into a depression with no end in sight.

So what do we do about the state of our lives as people struggle just to maintain the status quo? President Obama of course is making changes, but like he has said, change can take time. He has made some good strides, but it takes just a few people locally to make a difference in someone’s life now, to help him or her get through the day, to have hope that tomorrow will be a better day. I say this as I have struggled to keep my faith and positivity in check so I can get through, and I want to be able to pass that on to other people and help them in any way that I can. I am going to go back to school so I can earn that degree to get the job to help. I want to make a comfortable living to pay the bills, keep a roof over my head and food in my belly, and be able to have enough to donate to those who need it, as I do now. Sometimes when we are struggling the hardest, in the darkest of times we lose sight of the beauty of what life has to offer, we just need to help people so they can see it …


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