I was only 15 and my mom was so strict. We were at the grocery store and that is when I met him. He was so cute and personable. He started talking to me. My mom then invited him over to a family gathering. He tried so hard to sleep with me even on the first time we were alone. I rejected him for about 6 months. Then he had me under his spell. We eventually began dating. Little that I knew he was with other girls. I became obsessed with him. I thought I loved him. Soon after we dated he became abusive. He would beat me up. One time he even threw me out of his vehicle when he was driving. I then became pregnant. I was too proud to tell my parents of the abuse. So, I moved in with him and by that time most of my family had stopped talking to me. I was six months pregnant and alone. He went out most of the time since I was only 18 years old and he was 21 years old. During that time he always told me I was ugly and no other man would want me since I had a baby. He hit me constantly, even when I was holding our baby. I felt so alone, but I was so proud that I did not tell my family. I knew they knew that he was abusing me. I felt ashamed. Soon, there after I became stronger and started my own career, which caused him to become even more insecure. I have know been with him 15 years and I still wonder why I am with him. Our baby is 15 years old and has seen more abuse than he should have seen. I hope one day he will know that I stayed with his dad because of him. Even though I was not an angel, I have always lived my life around my son. Eleven years later we had another son. Hoping for a change in our life, it seems that we are acting like we were 15 years old again. All that I hope for is that our sons learn from our mistakes. I will always love my husband, but I believe it is time for us to start a new life for ourselves and our children. I will not do this again.
