You are what you focus on. What I focus on, I may grow. An interesting concept. I think perhaps I was focusing on some things that were drawing out everything good that was in me. I saw the bad before the good. I was slowly devolving into a scrooge. Maybe you were right. Maybe instead of saying, “I hate,” when I didn’t have, for example … any more grapes … I should savor their sweetness and go back for more without moaning and groaning. How wonderful to taste their sweetness, the snap of the green skin on my tongue.
This time, I’ll appreciate them more. Everything, even the (perceived) bad. I’ll smile at the butterfly and grin at the mistake. This time I will learn from the good that comes disguised in the bad. I see myself now, without the bitterness, without the cruel thoughts. This time I recognize the me that you see. I know that all of the heartbreaks were worth it because they moved me into position for you. I see myself now and love me, flaws and all. You are so much more than I hoped for and we deserve it. That is coming from a fully developed person who can appreciate her gifts as well as yours and the world is all right because of it and I am better because of you.
Today, the sun shines a bit brighter, I appreciate the gleam burning through my window because I close my eyes and lay my head on your shoulder. I appreciated the cold because it means I can share in your warmth. I appreciate my laughter because it is born in your jokes. I appreciate my thoughts because I will share them with you. I worship my ears because I can be silent and revel in your sound, the sweetness of you voice. Your thoughts erupting, pouring into my ears, saturating my shoulder, my neck, and then enveloping my heart in the warmth of your expressed love. I know that you will appreciate, love, and respect me more and more each day. I continue to do the same as you unveil yourself to me. I see myself now. I am reflection of your love.
