Basically I had lived with someone for fifty years. One day my husband said that he just didn’t want to work on our marriage anymore. It was difficult for me to wrap my brain around that and I was very hurt. I am grateful that I had some real good friends to love me through it all.
About six months after he left, I discovered the beauty of solitude. I discovered a peace that I cherish. I learned how to ballroom dance and I began traveling a lot. My life is really sweet. I date from time to time. I really enjoy being with me. I no longer say I am alone. I look at alone as all one. I know that if I want to be with people I can be and I cherish not having to be when I don’t want to be.
A friend asked me if I was lonely about two weeks ago. I chuckled and replied, “No more than I was when I was married. You can be lonely in the bed with someone.” I don’t think that loneliness has anything to do with whether you are with another person or not. I believe that it has everything to do with not connecting with the essence of yourself. I feel full.
