I never knew my life could be this hard. I have been dating the same guy I am with for a little over a year now. We were fine in the beginning of our relationship. We were happy, living together because my parents kicked me out. We were seeing each other for 3 months before he even asked me to be his girlfriend. One night I went to hang out with his cousin and we ended up getting too drunk so we stayed at her friends house. I ended up sleeping with a guy that was there. My boyfriend didn’t find out until 4 months later after we fell in love and were an actual couple.
He was mad, but he never got over it and doesn’t trust me to this day. My reasoning is that he shouldn’t be mad because we weren’t going out and just because I was living with him didn’t mean that we were exclusive. So he holds this grudge to this day. A couple weeks later, after he found out I had slept with that guy, we started fighting more and more and he started calling me derogatory names.
The first time he called me those names, I flipped out and grabbed his balls and squeezed them so hard he fell to the floor. But I guess he didn’t learn his lesson because he kept on calling me those names until this day. Then I went to Florida in December on vacation with my family and he was so nice to me and told me he wanted to marry me and he wanted to have a baby. Now a year later since we first got together I am pregnant. He still doesn’t trust me and thinks that it is not his baby.
I have never slept with anyone else besides him since that night with that guy. I can see how he doesn’t trust me, but to not trust me when I tell him that it IS his baby is just too much. So to prove it to him I told him I would get a paternity test. So now I am due in January. We have been fighting so much lately because of my hormones and stuff and he thinks I am a psycho and I am just using being pregnant as an excuse. He has never laid a hand on me but he continues with these words that hurt me so much because I know that it’s not true. I don’t know what to do and he tries to kick me out of the house every time we get into a fight and I love him to death but I don’t know what if can do to prove to him that he can trust me.
I want him to change and I am afraid to go live back with my parents because then my baby won’t have a father. I don’t know what to do to get him to change…please some advice.