I wrote this poem shortly after getting home from the hospital where I had recently been released, suffering from depression. I felt like I had a new hope, a new beginning but with the mental illness of Bi-Polar I suffer from, it just meant I was like in a remission for awhile.
Home again to face life as it is, not sure of the outcome or what is to be.
I feel like a real person now, which is different for me.
I don’t understand all the ups and downs that life has to give.
I finally feel life now has something to give.
I feel now that I am special somehow.
I wonder what life will offer me now.
There are two choices in life, good or bad.
For the little while it has been nothing but sad.
I now feel I have a purpose to fill.
I no longer feel it’s not always downhill.
I will always love myself as I am.
I’ll be my own best friend.
I will try to wake up with laughter in my heart.
So the good feelings for myself will never part.
I know this change will not happen overnight.
Because if it was that easy, there would be no despair in sight.