I felt it necessary to share my story with all of you so that good can come from my experiences. I want to help you. I am a twenty-year-old female. I am not going to hash out my past, but let’s just say it’s been without many true struggles. I experience panic attacks and have been for the past two years. I cannot explain what has brought them on exactly; it may have been a mixture of marijuana, genes, a type A personality, and living in NYC. Who knows. It doesn’t matter.
The reason I am sharing my story is so that if any of you are experiencing this debilitating condition, please know that you are not alone. I want to share with you ways that I have dealt with it. First let me tell you what symptoms I experience—chest pains, chest tightening, immediate urge for bowel movement, hot flashes, chills, dissociation from the mind, breathing difficulty, fear of impending doom, questions flooding the mind—“Should I call 911?” “Am I having a heart attack?” “What is wrong with me?” “I am not in control?” “I don’t treat my body good enough, I eat too many unhealthy foods, and drink too much alcohol” “Am I dying?” “People will think I am going crazy if I tell them how I feel.” It’s definitely not a comfortable state of living; in fact it can be pure hell. Many people who have not been through it don’t understand. I try not to get mad at them because if I would probably act the same towards someone like me.
Here are some tidbits of advice that have helped me: asking for help from a higher power, meditation, the Linden Method (check it out on YouTube or Google it), distraction with books, the internet, TV, calling a close friend, going outside and getting air, drinking water, and movement, like going on a walk or doing yoga. Yoga helps me because it involves deep breathing. Also, think positive thoughts and get yourself into a higher vibration of energy (fear is a low vibration). Fear is an understandable reaction, but try to tell yourself that you are okay … breath deep.
If you have panic attacks or even anticipatory anxiety please don’t hesitate to email me. You are absolutely not alone. I have been there and sometimes still go there.
Caroline (not related to this Web site “DivineCaroline”)