Oh wow, what did I do this time? I ask myself how much did I spend and who did I promise what? Okay, okay, calm down now and think, think, think. Trace your steps back and just think. Whew, not that bad for right now. Now I have a date with this one at this time and this one at this time. Well I don’t want to go out or sleep with either one of them, so I just won’t be here. That will settle that. Okay, time to get out of here.
Hey, baby. How are you doing?
Pretty good, guess what I just did?
Well, I had two dates and really didn’t want to go out with either one of them. So I left and came over here.
So you are not taking your medicine, I see.
Come off of it, mom! You know how it makes me hungry and I just don’t like taking medicine.
So what makes you any better than me?
It doesn’t make me any better. I have a weight problem and I don’t need the extra problem.
So what else have you done? Do you remember?
Spent a lot of money and I will take most of it back.
Yes. Well, I need to go now. I’ll talk to you later, mom.
Okay, be careful and slow down. You don’t see how fast you are going. I love you and don’t want to lose you.
Let’s see … dang I can’t think straight. Where do I go now? Think I will go eat and then go home.
Dang this place is filthy; think I will start in the bedroom and then work my way to the front. Strip the bed, now wax the furniture and clean the baseboards. Dang how long has it been since I cleaned the light fixtures?
Well, now for the bathroom. Cough, cough, cough, this stuff is ruff. Opening the window, I took a deep breath and breathed in some fresh air. I mixed too many chemicals again. I swear I will kill myself by accident if not careful. It has been awhile since I waxed the floors; what has been wrong with me? Whew, now that looks so much better. Clean and shiny.
Crap my hands are shaking again. Uhh my head, I hurt. Need to lay down …
Shit what time is it? Damn the phone is ringing again. Shit where are my cigarettes? No coffee.
Are you okay?
Yeah. I came home and cleaned house.
Well did you clean the light bulbs?
Check and see. I did one time.
Yeah, I remember! I thought that was normal.
When it hit me last night I had the shakes and the crying and stuff all hit at once.
Are you going to take your medicine now?
Yeah, and then go see the doctor.
I love you, daughter.
I love you, mom.
Now go and call up these men and apologize. You hurt people when you do that; you don’t realize how much you hurt them.
Okay, I will.