It really happens for my sake!
What a week—or should I write weak!?
When we talked on the phone last Tuesday, I purposely avoided mentioning—we had other matters to discuss—I had come back from my eye doctor and he was so “motivated” to call in another two eye specialists for me to see (pun intended) on Thursday.
I thought of KISS (Keep It Short, Stupefied!)—they’ll let me try further with drops, and otherwise it’ll be surgery!
Also Tuesday evening, the air conditioning conked out. I spoke to you while keeping cool in a draft. It was supportable during the night and climbed up to 89 degrees F by lunchtime. The technician came and he had to get a specialist, too. We waited and waited for him—he arrived Wednesday, the next day, at 11 a.m. and it took the air conditioning struggling way into the wee hours of the morning to cool the house down.
Meanwhile, I was having a pain in my right ear, emanating from the middle of my throat and under my chin. I thought I caught a cold during that draft. KISS—my dentist gave me prescriptions for antibiotics and hydrocodone, as he can only work on my tooth when the abscess has calmed down. The root channel and the following procedures up to the crowning of my tooth will take place Monday, 1 p.m. (CAT—should you want to pray for me!). And that needs to be done by two further specialists. It’ll also challenge me with $2500, of which my dental plan will come up for just about the quarter of that amount.
You know the saying—misfortunes always come in threes. You can’t imagine how relieved I am now that I can give up having to wait for another terrible thing to happen to me.
What I really know and am so very grateful for is this: The Eternal—blessed be S/He—loves me (and all you guys and gals too, of course) so much that S/He lets only those things happen in this Universe that happen for me and my learning. I am sometimes amiss as to what the lesson may be. Only sometimes further down the road I realize, “Aha! That’s what it was for!”
I’m also very grateful that S/He is the Unique Specialist and can do it all on S/His own. Any further specialists in this domain—well, perhaps are we humans—still are very much in the apprenticeship stage.
You see, whatever happens always happens for me—never to me! It took me quite some time, in fact perhaps one to two decades, to realize that I never, never got punished by the Eternal.
I did however have to face up to the consequences again and again. Sometimes they were shocking, sometimes terrible, sometimes wonderful, and sometimes hilarious. And didn’t I just learn to laugh about myself when I realized what the fuss was all about?!
Now I am absolutely confident that whatever happens, I shall overcome. Of course, I am afraid at times—and I pray often, like I did at last week’s retreat, before striking through that fir wood plank with the palm of my hand. And also when I need to find more confidence in myself! You know how it is. When you stand in the muck—be it up to your ankles or up to your throat—it is impossible to see the ground, the Eternal Foundation, you stand upon.
And even when you are dancing, can you see the floor? You just have the certainty that the Foundation is there and will carry you. For that I am immensely grateful.
Now, thank you, dear friend! You have just helped me to write a page for my book. Peace and blessings.
Most cordially yours,