Did I disappoint you? Had I tried harder would it have worked but maybe like all dying things it would have floated on. I wanted to be happy for you and let jealousy glide away but that was too hard for me to let go. Time can go by and give no solution. We can keep aging in the wrong direction and our paths will never cross. I wanted so badly to be there I know you wanted it too. No one could have smiled harder when there were tears in their eyes but I know you tried. Everyone lets someone down sometime. I had intended to do everything right the second time around. I replay it over and over and find no other reasons to explain why I am what I am. I can’t say that I am sorry and I hope that this is good now for you.