You know, for about two years I stopped being vocal and remained quiet as a mouse. All I did was stay focused on my dreams, mind my business, didn’t brag, and even stayed away from these fast-pretty women. And still, I’m doubted, and still these dudes at college hate on me, judge me, and claim I’m being reckless, out-of-control, and “sorry” at what I do for my passion. But regular people looking outward-in, who know a lot about my passion, say I have what it takes. And that I should just leave and be somebody with my talent.
This is only the gist of how everything turns against me. And yeah, I have an attitude, say things I shouldn’t, and have negative body language. But one thing you could never deny is that I do the right things, I never cheat my self or anyone of effort, and I’m very talented, and want to be the great one day at my sport.
Somehow, I’ll get out of this place. I feel stuck here but many other times I have been stuck and felt helpless. But I feel the light inside of me will never allow any darkness to overcome me.
You see, many times (maybe ten times in my life) in the middle of my sleep I would wake up and open my eyes. And I would try to move my self and get up from lying in the bed, and I couldn’t move with my eyes wide open, and I couldn’t even breathe. And while I was scared, fighting to get my senses and body back, two times out of those ten I encountered demons touching me and pulling me. And it kept reoccurring again and again. But I kept fighting to get back my body to working, and eventually I pulled through and I made it, and I was fine.
These weren’t any dreams, hallucinations, delusions, or whatever you want to call it. It was real. Some girl “Katie” even wrote me saying: “This same exact thing has happened to me. You may think this is way out in left field but I watched a psychic lady on the Montel Williams show one day. Her name was Sylvia Brown. And they were at a part in the show where they take questions from the audience and this lady starts explaining to her this same exact thing. you are laying in bed, someone is there, you can’t move, can’t scream, you can even see what’s really on the TV (if you sleep with TV on) and I forget the exact term Sylvia used to explain this but basically its an out of body experience. When you go to sleep you fly out of your body and go do all those things that you dream about and then something suddenly startles you, now this is when you should normally just wake up, but what happens to us is sometimes are selves are just trying to get back in to our sleeping selves. And this is why there are things in your room and you can’t move. Because you are basically lying on top of yourself trying to get back in. I know this probably doesn’t make any sense but ever since I had this explained to me it has only happened once since. And I am only telling you because I know this is one of the most terrifying feelings in the world. Anyway … You can try this if you want, I haven’t needed to but Sylvia said that if you ask God to keep your body inside tonight while you sleep this shouldn’t happen. I hope this helps ease your mind a bit about that. Or at least to know you are not the only one. –Katie”
And I told my mom, and she brought a priest to speak to me. And after the priest spoke to me in a deep conversation where I mainly spoke about my passion and what I wanted to be; he told me, “Look Schneider, your special. And from my discernment, the Devil has a very close eye on you, especially you.” I didn’t care about the devil keeping an eye on me, because I’m a zillion, trillion, billion times more scared of God and Jesus Christ the Messiah. But what made my day was that he knew I was special.
I already knew I was special, and always brimmed with extreme belief in myself, but that moment gave me no excuse to quit on my self. So from this day forward I’m going to achieve my dreams, and have all those people who hate me right now, one day become proud of me. One day I only want people to respect me, and acknowledge me.
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