It was the summer that I dared to follow dreams that led me on a journey of hope. I was going to run my race out loud where I would face adversity while trying to find my own true self. With a restless soul that could no longer be contained I was determined to raise the bar and escape my boundaries in search of a peaceful and tranquil life. Nothing would ever be the same again.
It was a persistent whisper within beckoning, what if? As if my life were a puzzle I was looking for the missing piece, a void in my heart, which seemingly the ways of the world would never fill. Our creator can speak to us through dreams, people, and circumstance. My journey began through a dream constantly dreaming I was falling into a pit of darkness until one night, I spoke the words, but what if I fall? A voice answered, “Then I will catch you.” I believe that God knew I was lost and he was letting me know if I fall then he will catch me. Believing in miracles and that things happen for a reason that will follow me for a lifetime. The second part of my journey led me to inevitably leave and end my marriage of thirteen years. I uprooted my children for the sake of a better peaceful life. Our lives at home were lived around anger, turmoil, and extreme emotional abuse.
During my journey there has always been someone there who tried to hijack my imagination and hinder my faith and my spirit. This only helped point me forward in creating more of a desire for me to live and not just survive. God has been beside me sending people in and out of my life and sometimes only for a season would they remain keeping me strong and teaching me how to love and what it was like to be loved. Their guidance has helped lead me to the missing piece of puzzle to calm my restless soul and fill the void in my heart.
Circumstances have led me to make decisions that ultimately have caused me to live my life in limbo for over two years. This has only helped me to have faith in God and to live by faith and not by sight. I have been able to forgive those who caused me hurt which in return has helped me have inner peace and joy. This to me is a miracle. For God is only a prayer away and he is always there today and tomorrow.
I can live my life in harmony with my soul’s destination. Letting go of all I had ever known to become all I was meant to be. I have learned to embrace this journey and to live the abundant life that I was created to live. God has a bigger plan for all of us and I have learned it isn’t the journey, it’s the destination.