Some time ago I started writing some things down about what I wanted in a relationship. Between that time and now I have been in and out of one. I can now say that what I thought I was looking for has changed. Honesty, integrity, and faithfulness (to me and God) are at the VERY top of my list. No more lies or hidden truths.
My last relationship started out like I always wanted it to, or so I thought. He seemed to be everything I wanted. He was pursuing me and it just felt so nice to feel wanted. I learned that it is important to talk about past relationships; how they ended, especially. I’ve also learned it’s not ok for someone to turn a question I had around on me as if I was not trusting of them. That’s a HUGE red flag. There was so much I have taken from this relationship, good and bad. It’s ok to cherish the good times we had, but more importantly it’s very important that I remember how it felt to be lied to and have things turned around on me.
That was my first love-type relationship. I’ve learned more about me. It’s ok for me to be guarded and picky. However, I do need to be more upfront with how I feel; good and bad. I’ve realized I’m worth more than I was being treated … far more than rubies to be exact. Most of all, I can say that I will not settle for less than God’s best for me.
I truly want God’s will for my life. While many of us say we want His will, but pray for our own (I’ll be the first to admit my guilt), it’s a true testament to give up control and give it to God; letting Him reign in your heart and over your life.
“God understands our questioning, but if our questions keep us from trusting His goodness and wisdom, then we have forfeited His promised blessedness and peace.” – Verna Birkey
The thing is, God knows me better than I know myself. “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my My ways higher than your ways.” I’m going to strive for His will, not just my own. I’ve tried doing it my way and look where it got me. But, I can say that I am thankful for a broken heart because God was there to pick up the pieces and put it back together. God really is in control and has the very best for me in mind.
“I can learn, with God’s power and motivation, to daily make the choices that will lead me toward my goal of being a godly wife.” – Linda Dillow
No longer am I searching for “Prince Charming” who will come and sweep me off my feet onto his white horse. Instead, I pray for a Godly man who loves the Lord with his whole heart, soul, and mind. I pray for this man who will someday be my husband.
Lord, I ask for you to watch over him. Prepare his heart and mind, just as You are preparing mine. I ask that You bless him today, wherever he may be. Let him feel Your love like never before. I pray that he would be faithful and abide in Your word. Guide his heart and mind.
I believe someday I will be united with the man God has for me. I also believe we will raise Godly children. Until then, I stand strong in my faith and God’s Word. I’ve learned that I’d rather follow God’s will than chase after fairytales.
I can say that I’m happy with my life; being single. I have the best friends a girl could ask for and a very supportive and loving family (mainly two nephews who have captured my heart completely!).
While I would love to find my match, I want to be sure that I’m spiritually prepared. Too easily God gets pushed to the back of the line. I was actually talking to Jotty the other night and he gave me this analogy that was right on with me. God stays constant in our lives. He never fails us or leaves us. We pass Him on our way down and then cry out for His help. But as soon as we get back to the top (where we pass Him yet again) we forget about Him; thinking we no longer need His services.
“Wounds do heal, but there are times to allow the Great Physician to perform surgery so they heal right.” – Nancie Carmichael
The truth is, we need Him all the time; in good times AND in bad and everything inbetween. I want my relationship with God to be constant, yet steadily growing. In the past when everything seemed to be going good in my life and in my relationships, not only did I stop praying as much, but I stopped praying for His will. Then when it got bad, I felt like God had left and was just causing all this havoc in my life; allowing it to happen. But, I pushed Him away. I stopped having Him at the center of my life. It’s not always going to be easy to do that, but I want to stand strong in my faith, stronger than ever before.
Lord, I pray that you would work in me; in my heart and mind. Prepare me for Your will and guidance. Allow me to be still and quiet to hear Your voice, yet bold and confident to pursue Your will. Lord, guide my words, thoughts, and prayers. Let my life shine as an example for You. Guard my heart and mind and renew in me a love for You. Help me to be patient and wait for Your timing. Instill in me the patience and guidance to follow Your will.
But in the end of all things is at hand; therefore be serious and watchful in your prayers. And above all things, have fervent love for one another, for “love will cover a multitude of sins.” – 1 Peter 4:7-8