I am having a really hard time this morning. My head is spinning because I hurt someone’s feelings. My ex boyfriend. The relationship was all wrong he emotionally beat me down telling me I was unlovable and I didn’t deserve love on e the other side of that I have my mother and neighbors telling me I was wrong I treated him mean I am nasty I am this and I am that. The abuse is coming from all directions and I feel like I am literally being pulled down into a black whole.
My mind is at a stand still and all I keep hearing is my mother my neighbor her daughter and my exboyfriend. Weeks before the break up I had a bipolar episode but when it passed I saw how everything was different. He made me feel like total shit. He really tore me down to the point where I wanted to kill myself. Today I feel the same way. Like I will never get out of this and even if I decide to take a vow of silence it will never end.