I am the person next door, the mother at the school bus stop, the woman doing groceries. Yet I have a huge secret, I’m not the person you think I am. I talk to neighbors about gardening, daily routines, and daily problems. To some my secret is very serious, to others it is fascinating, to others I’m nuts, and I realize all of this. So it was a very hard decision for me to “come out”.
I have been doing this in secret for many years; very few people know my secret. I know it is time to tell people and to move forward and use it to help but it is very hard. OK, I’m going to reveal my big secret … I am a medium! There I said it! I can talk to dead people! Whew! Finally the secret is out! I have had this “gift” if that’s what you want to call it, for my whole life. I was terrified by it when I was a kid and even into my adult life, until I found a wonderful mentor who helped me hone it and learn how to control it. I’ve had the opportunity to help many grieving people who have lost loved ones and through that I’ve learned that it is a gift I have, not a curse and there is a purpose for it. For years I struggled with the whys, why me, why does this even exist, why does anyone want to talk to the dead, why, why, why, then someone comes into my life and I help them have a bit of closure or a final goodbye and then I have my answers to the whys.
In the past I’ve told a handful of people, some of them remained my friends, others ran away screaming. Ok maybe they didn’t actually scream but I never heard from them again. I’d then be convinced I could NEVER tell anyone. So, what has changed, why have I all of a sudden decided to come out of the Medium Closet? Well, a few things, I come from a huge family, I’m the youngest of the first cousins and thanks to social media the cousins have started to reach out to each other, and through this I found out that I’m not the only one in my family that has this kind of gift. This somehow made me feel less alone, less like a freak in the family, I’m one of many freaks!!! Also there are more and more people interested in spirituality, more people are opening to all the possibilities around them. I know that I will come across doubters, but I’ve finally realized that I do not have to explain myself, it is what it is, I am who I am. My goal now is to help both the living and the dead move forward, share with people my knowledge of the other side and mentor others who may be struggling like I was.