9 months are over!!
Our talks are over, our love is over, our dreams have ended – You have gotten married also! Why am I even writing this article about this someone who holds no meaning in my life, someone who has taken it all away, someone who has filled my heart with insecurities, someone who never respected and loved me as much as I did, someone who gave me more pain than I could even handle? I dont know!
Faint memories clouding my mind this minute. I wish I could do something to simply erase all the times I spent with this someone. I just want to remember nothing, nothing at all. Just want to forget those 4 years, every single memory, every single kiss, every single plan, every single promise you made – COMPLETELY!
Isnt it funny? I have no feelings for this someone anymore, but I still allow his memories to engulf me and choose to lock myself in a dark room. Its hard to let go, to let go of those memories completely, but I will. I sure will! I have recovered or surely am on the path to recovery..
At this phase of my life, where confusion and insecurity are my constant companion, I have learnt to fall in love all over again. With everything around me, with life, with my family and the most important people of my life who have redefined the meaning of life for me.
I want to stop questioning whether Ihave successfully let go of this someone as yet or not, and instead focus on tutti, everyone, everybody around me who are a part of my life. Who love me generously, friends whom I can call when I wake up in the middle of the night after having a bad dream, people who are willing to reassure me every single time I feel weak and start to contemplate, and God like family who have answers to all my questions and show me the way..
Someone great once said – Where there is love, there is God, and where there is God, there is life, and I choose life! I choose to let it be, I choose to experience every single emotion without questioning it, without fear.
It sure is hard to let go at times, or is it??
9 months are over!!