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My Child Dying

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This was the worst dream I have ever had and it was so real I actually woke myself up from sobbing … and continued to sob as I lay there in bed. The dream started off being at a party—whose party I couldn’t tell you. Then all the sudden, I was in a car headed somewhere I am not certain of when the driver (whom I did not know) pulled over because he said he had to change the tire of the car. So I got out of the car and right in front of me was a bunch of people swimming at a community pool.

When I looked a little closer at them, I realized it was my family so I walked toward them and everyone was laughing and having a good time. Everyone acknowledged me; all of my family was there—my mother, both my sisters, all my friends, my children (all three of them), twins who are twelve and a six-year-old. But wait … I couldn’t find my six-year-old anywhere. As I am calling out for her, I realize she is not around. I ask and no one knows where she is. No one was in the pool at all. Then I stood at the edge of the pool and looked down and there she was, sinking to the bottom while looking up at me into my eyes the whole time. Then in slow motion, I am looking around and screaming at the top of my lungs at all my friends and family, begging for help, to help me to save her, and not one person helped me. They were all looking at me like I was crazy and they didn’t know how to help me, so I reached in and grabbed her by her hair and pulled her out.

By then, her eyes were closed and she was not breathing. While I am still screaming for help, no one helped me. I was beating on her chest and giving her mouth to mouth and trying my hardest to get her to breathe. I knew she was dead and then I woke myself up from sobbing. That dream was so real to me, like it actually happened. Needless to say, whenever she is in or around water … I am there.


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