I'm really home
I'm really back to the place I thought I would just be visiting on holidays.
I'm really jobless and living with my parents.
I had life by the balls and now it has me.
I'm really confused
I'm really going to call
Alone in my car wanting no one to hear but you
Balling my eyes out
Looking foryou to want me to return
I recieved nothing
Just the hum of my engine in a dark car
On a country road.
I'm really waitressing
I'm really educated
I'm really bussing tables
I had a whirlwind adventure that is spinning out of control.
I'm really trying
I'm really going to make a new start
I'm really getting wasted
Long nights in a smoky bar
Endless beers to drown out the thoughts
Of what I thought my life would be
In California
With the man I loved.
I'm really home
I'm really back to the place I thought I would just be visiting on holidays
I'm no longer jobless but living with my parents
I had life by the balls and now it has me.
