Driving on the highway, as fast as you could. Oh, you can’t wait to get to your destination and one of the reasons you’re getting impatient is the voice of your kids at the back screaming almost every minute, “DAD, are we there yet?”
I’m not a parent yet, but I guess this must be one of the most hated questions for some people: are we there yet! We grow up and somehow this question still resides, we grow more patient when driving a car, but less patient while driving on life’s unpredictable road. So God keeps getting questions from us, the same question no matter how you rephrase it: Lord, are we there yet? Isn’t it time already?
We discussed in my last note, that we face the challenge of waiting in patience almost everyday of our lives. And that it is important to choose who to wait with. And I said that the very best candidate (the only one who can be called for such a mission) is Jesus Christ.
So now you’re waiting. Though I have no idea what you’re waiting for, or what you are expecting, but I welcome you to the club. A club of much fun, excitement, anticipation and frustration (many times)!
I have no problem with the fun that I experience as I wait or the excitement. Many days, I sit around and I think of how God has a miraculous get-a-away for me. I ponder this through the long night. Anticipating the good keeps you going forward, with enthusiasm.
And I do so by repeating God’s promises. For instance I go around repeating bible verses like, “Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord. Psalm 27:14 or like, “Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass. Psalm 37:5.” I stick them on the walls in my room and i gaze at them often to remind myself that though I wait … I am not waiting in vain.
But when the low times come, what can I do! (Oh, boy if I could only eliminate those times.)
When your heart seems so weary, impatient, and you feel like you’re going to drop dead, what do you do?
When you’ve repeated those beautiful verses so many times, but it just seems like it’s been forever this way, and nothing seems to comfort you, (or maybe you do not want to be comforted).
When you’re just sick of waiting, of expecting, while you can go and do things your way. You don’t want to hear anyone telling you that “the Lord’s answer is near.” And you’re so not in the mood of reading an article by Michal, telling you to keep your banana chocolate cake for tomorrow.
What do you do then?
What do I do then?
Mark Oueis, who is a good friend of mine, wrote in one of his beautiful articles titled “The glory of the unmarried Christian”, about the struggles that every single Christian faces, once he has chosen to wait for the right time, for the right one and did not give in to temptation. He went on to describe the hardships of this kind of life, he also revealed the glory within all of these hard times when he wrote the following:
“I think this can best be explained by looking at the situation through God’s perspective. God is looking at you and asking “Despite the fact that there are so many counterfeit ways to make the struggle go away, does she trust me enough to obey me anyways—and even more than that, praise me?” “Despite the fact she does not understand why this is happening or what’s the point of it all, does she trust me enough to obey me anyways—and even more than that, praise me?” “Despite the fact that she is all alone in her room and nobody else is looking, does she trust me enough to obey me anyways—and even more than that, praise me.” This is your chance to say, “Yes Lord yes.”
Do you see the point here? The thing is that when you are at the lowest, weakest level you could reach, the only thing that can keep you going is to keep looking on God, keep praising God, and keep trusting Him.
Yes, it seems like an endless journey, but we both know that it will end. You say I want it to end NOW. God says, no matter how horrible it feels, i will not give you what you want in the wrong time, I love you too much to let you ruin your life.
Once my pastor said, “God is not a Grand father, He is a father.”
Grandparents spoil their grand children. They give them chocolate when they don’t feel like finishing their meal. They might leave them at home when the kids nag about waking up early for school. But parents will not tolerate that. Parents are willing to see their kids cry today, so they won’t have to cry for the rest of their life.
And God is the greatest father of all. And He knows what’s best for you and me!
So my dear one, when you feel like kicking and screaming and when you’re only interested in staying at home diving into oceans of miseries of your own, do it (because you’re human). But don’t stay there, shake that frustration off of your back soon and get back to the race, because you will get there. I will get there.
God once spoke gently to me in one of those days and said, “No matter how long the road and foggy the night … I am waiting with you.”
Remind yourself constantly that your miracle, your answer could come today or tomorrow or the day after. You never know, so keep expecting, keep hoping, keep praising God, and keep waiting. It could be much closer than you think!