At this point in my life I don’t spend much time thinking about how to feel or look beautiful today.
Whatever I find that fits comfortably around my waist and is classically in style is what I’m gonna wear today. I am finally comfortable with my body and going around without makeup. It wasn’t a year ago that I would hardly be caught in public without either my makeup or at least wearing something very hip and stylish. My hair had to be perfectly cut and styled at all times in public; even if it meant just wetting it and slicking it back behind my ears. Luckily I have that wet and go type hair. It dries the same position it is in when wet. Anyway and moving on, the most simple things make me feel beautiful these days. Getting my brows waxed and shaped makes me feel well groomed and beautiful. I don’t wear makeup at all these days and having my brows “done” makes me feel like I don’t need it. When I want to look extra beautiful, I put on mascara and lip gloss and I’m out the door. If I want a little nighttime drama, I’ll add some smoldering eye shadow and eyeliner. Those nights are few and far between however. Most days I think I’m beautiful with the “done” brows, mascara, and lip gloss.
Another special treat is the twice monthly pedicure. I love my feet, and having them professionally groomed makes me feel like a beautiful princess. It’s just not the same when I do them. It feels like a chore and contortionist torture instead. So you can see why I would be so excited to have a professional pedicure. It is also my time to embrace the feeling of letting go, relaxing and learning to enjoy being pampered.
When I am done, I leave feeling like the most beautiful woman in the world. I also get a manicure at the same time but being in the medical field; my hands will never look or make me feel beautiful. The constant washing and using alcohol or chemical based cleansers makes my pretty manicure short lived. No, I can’t depend on my hands to give me that beauty boost.
What makes me feel the most beautiful? It’s not well fitting clothes, hair done perfectly, face made up beautifully, the pedicure or the manicure. It’s not even the perfume that I was once addicted to. I feel absolutely beautiful and content when I am wearing a short lounge dress and curled up on the sofa with my husband watching a movie. No make up, hair falling in my face each time I drop my head, and feet perfectly done. I am content and the thought of “am I beautiful enough” never crosses my mind. I know that I am radiating beauty from within.