Part II: Sobriety
In 2007 at 3 a.m., a loud voice yelled at me “sobriety!” My eyes popped open! Startled I looked around the room expecting someone to be there, but there were only the shadows on the wall from the streetlight. I thought a long time about the word “sobriety,” then I wrote the word down on a notepad I kept by the bed. This word was a little scary because I liked to drink. I liked to be buzzed up. I wasn’t an alcoholic, but a party girl. Like so many of us, I liked to be out and about, dancing, playing pool, enjoying friends, and drinking beer—lots of beer.
The days passed and I endured a battle in my mind over drinking. Everywhere I went I thought, “do I drink or not drink?” I found myself drinking simply because I was weak against the thought of not being able to drink. A battle raged for three years, until Lent of 2010. February 17–April 4, God encountered me by showing me the video of my life. How he saw me. What I looked like being drunk. How ugly I was and how I did a lot of things because others wanted me to.
God brought me Romans 12:2; Do not conform any longer to the patterns of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing, and perfect will. I suddenly saw what God meant. That being drunk and partying is living like the rest of the world. But to live God’s way and be of the world is his true way of life for us. Through God’s encounter with me, I had review and revelation of my life and have been sober ever since. I can’t imagine disappointing God ever again.
He really does care about us and wants us to live our very best lives. There is forgiveness for our past and he has an unbelievable future ahead.