I Am but a Vapor

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Who am I that the Lord of all the earth would care to know my name. Would care to feel my hurt. Who am I that the bright and morning star would choose to light the way from my ever wondering heart. I am a flower that quickly fading, here today and gone tomorrow. A wave tossed in the ocean, a vapor on the wind …
     
I never get tired of listening to this song entitled Who Am I by casting crowns. It always reminds of who I am in the sight of my Creator. Every time I hear this song, it never fails to pierce through my heart that really I am just a vapor, I may be here today but maybe gone tomorrow. That my life is nothing but a dust, a rag, nothing compared to my everlasting God. Every time I hear this song, it made me think of how I live my life like I own it, like I will live forever, like I am in control of everything. But just hearing this song made me realize that the Lord owns my life from the beginning, even when I didn’t knew him then. That I am just a vapor, I could be gone and everything I have in the blink of an eye. That God is in control of my life and every single thing that happens in it.
      
I worry a lot. I’m thinking about my life, the future, the past, tomorrow, what if’s, what now, what will happen, shortcomings, sins, am I saved? What about them… this song has always been my wake-up call. That hey, will worry change anything and everything? Yes, worry has changed me in a negative way. I’ve been too worried that I became greedy, that I refuse to give, I am afraid to lose money, I’m afraid to get poor, in the process lost my trust in the Lord. Thank God for slapping me through this song. I should not be worried about tomorrow, let tomorrow worry about itself. I have enough worry for today. I am letting God handle it coz isn’t it He who created me? All I own might be gone tomorrow but what I have in my heart and who I have in my life today, my Lord Jesus Christ, will live forever and will never be taken away from me. As the song goes…
       
Who am I. That the eyes that see my sin, would look on me with love and watch me rise again. Who am I that the voice who calmed the sea would call out through the rain and calm the storm in me …

       
As tears rolled down from my eyes, I asked the Lord to constantly play this song over and over in my heart, for Him to engrave the lyrics in my soul so that will never forget who I am, how I am loved by Him, how I am valued in His sight.


From now on, I wanted to live a different life. I wanted to look at a different view now. I wanted to leap on a greater faith now. I wanted to live now, to breathe now, to sing now, to eat now, to be brave now, to worship Him now, to serve Him now, to obey Him now, to love now, to forgive now, to forget now … yesterday is gone, not tomorrow, but today. Today might be my last chance.
       
God knows, I might be a vapor tomorrow.

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