It's Not Over Yet

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I’m thirty years old, a decade beyond twenty and what I’m sure will be a short ten years away from forty, but I feel like I’m centuries away from the person I was at twenty.

At twenty years old I was an attractive college dropout that could barely afford to pay my rent but somehow always found the resources to party every night of the week on Miami Beach. There was something about the lights and bright sports cars in the city that blinded my common sense and told me that I could and should be a part of everything that was going on all the time. Leaving the club drunk and going straight to work was a regular occurrence, so was waking up two hours after I was supposed to start my shift at work. Looking back, I have no idea how I kept my job.

The only men that I met while living on Miami Beach lived in another state and just happened to be rich. Before long I was criss-crossing the country visiting my “boyfriends” on my days off. By the time I stopped to look around I was twenty-five years old, smoking, drinking and dancing (on top of bars) my life away. I had pushed every nice guy out of my life and opted for the rich bad boys that treated me like crap and I didn’t have a college education. My life felt like it was going nowhere, fast.

Of course there are a lot of things that contributed to the wild ways of my early twenties. Life gave me just enough heartache to have emotional issues. I decided to fix myself when I was twenty-six. I started a long and continuous process of self improvement. In the beginning, I wallowed in regret for a lot of the things I did during my twenties ― the men, the partying…One of the most important things I learned is that if there are mistakes to be made in life, your twenties is the best time for them. A lot can be forgiven or even forgotten from your twenties. When you’re in your twenties you don’t realize how young you actually are, you’re still young enough to create a whole new life for the rest of your life.

I recently graduated from college and I will begin an MBA program this fall. I ditched the transient rich guys and I’ve found out what my real passions are. I truly believe I’m living my best life right now with much better things to come.

So, if you should ever find yourself looking back at your twenties feeling like the mistakes you made then are ruining your life right now, don’t regret, it’s not over yet.


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