I’m twenty-nine (will be thirty in about four months). I’m single, have no kids and never been in a serious relationship (wasn’t ready for anything serious, until now). I was always very focused in school and my career. I made it to the place I wanted to be in my life; at least I thought this is where I wanted to be.
The problem is, I’m supposed to know who I am and what I want in my life by now. I’m supposed to and have it all figured out. Here I am, very early in the morning, sitting on my bed, writing this, crying and feeling completely lost and confused! I don’t know what to do? I don’t know anything! I never thought I would be in this situation at this stage in my life. After getting my degree in engineering, doing different jobs and having a life most would envy, I feel that I’ve nothing! Makes me wonder, am I really supposed to have it all figured out by now or feeling lost and confused is just normal? What is normal?
I really hate this feeling! No matter how much I hate it I can’t seem to figure things out. I’ve been feeling this way for little while now and I wish I could do something about it but I feel that I’m stuck! I stuck in vicious cycle from which I can’t get out! Did anyone ever feel this way in his or her late twenties or going through what I’m going through right now? I would very much like to hear from you. I don’t know, maybe hearing from you will help me out, somehow.