Only those that have had the trial of enduring sexual abuse can really help one another through this. We have a connection. We have this in common before communicating with one another. Each one of us has the same pain, learned behavior, how we deal with issues and so on.
But with the help of one another, we can start healing and implementing how we deal with learned behavior or our out look with the abuse. The changes I have made in my life have implemented over the years. Am I saying it will give you the same outlook or change your life? I am saying that it may help or work for someone? I don’t know.
My abuser was my dad. He was a sick evil person. When I think of my dad, I only see a man that was lost, unhappy, and had no direction in life. He fathered quite a few children, not sure the number of children.
I describe him as a drinker; he was strict and abusive both mentally and physically. I never heard the words “I love you,” I never knew what it meant or the feel of being loved. I just know through this abuse Daddy’s hands changed this sweet little innocent girl.
When I was a young lady mid twenties, I read an article out of the Reader’s Digest. It said that you can let your past keep you in bondage or you can choose to break free of the bondage with a new thought pattern.
Well, I am here to tell you that at the age of twenty-five, it did not happen quickly. I still had to make lots of mistakes or trials—I like to call them trials before realizing that I can get a hold of my demon and break from this bondage.
It did not happen overnight. It is a learning process and you must be willing to make changes. Did the changes come easily? Some did. Did the changes happen quickly? It depended on me on some of the issues. Other issues took me longer.
With the help of the one I depend on, My Lord and Savior, I can tell you. I’ll be very honest. That one took time. As I will share later.
I am being pulled to help others to learn knowledge before it happens, knowledge to those that are enduring the abuse, for those that are still in bondage.
No, I am not a professional. I am just a regular person that survived and is no longer in bondage. Only sharing my testimony how I was able to take back my life and make better choices. When I say better choices, I mean the behavior and actions that are played out because of the abuse. Once learning that those actions where because of the abuse, I then knew that was not who I wanted to be. That it was not my fault. Now knowing the difference it is up to me to change my thought pattern. Getting closer to success!
“I Love You”
Free from bondage,
Love and God Bless